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Weekend Goodness

on February 24, 2014


I haven’t blogged in a few days because, well I was enjoying life for a few days. 😉 We decided to go to WV for a surprise visit to see my Daddy who is recovering from a knee replacement surgery. He has been a little down because the healing process is not going as quickly as he would like it to be. We drove up Friday morning and got there in the late afternoon. WV has been getting hammered with snow storm after snow storm and I guess we failed to realize how soft the ground was when we pulled in the yard to avoid Dad hearing the truck if we went in the driveway. We went inside and he was in his room with the therapist and I stood in the living room and called him on the phone. My sister Laura got the whole thing on video. As I was talking to him I was slowly walking towards his room. I ended up standing in his door way and he had his head down and when he looked up he almost fell out of bed! He was so surprised and I loved it that we could do that for him.

When we went outside to pull the truck in the driveway to unload we noticed it had already sunk about 4 inches into the ground. Darin quickly tried to put it in 4 wheel drive to get it out, but it was so stuck the 4 wheel wouldn’t even engage. After many attempts with wood, bricks, ice melt and much more we realized that that thing was going no where! My nephew called the neighbor with the big tractor and he came down and about 10 minutes later the Hulk was pulled out and back in the driveway where it should have been to begin with! Before though we all had a chance to let our redneck kick in and try to get it unstuck! Even my sister and nephew had a try. We all had a good laugh over it when it was all said and done.

The weekend was wonderful! Anytime with my Daddy is a great time! I was able to cook him a dinner that he has been wanting and he enjoyed it so much. I got to visit with family and even saw a few friends while we were there. I had some great laughs with my sisters Laura and Traci. I wished I could have seen Becky, but she was sick and with that whole no immune system right now I couldn’t be around her. 😦

Yesterday I was in a lot of pain from the cancer and of  course the foot that is 50 shades of purple right now. I hated to let anyone see me in pain and it was nice that I have a family that understands and sits down with me to still keep chatting and laughing.

It’s always hard to leave. Don’t get me wrong I LOVE my beach and this is my home now, but leaving family is always hard. Dad was laying in his bed when we left and I sat down beside him and laid my head on his chest. When you have aging parents, the thought process is always there wondering if this is the last time I will see him. He prayed with us for a safe travel and I prayed for him. We promised to call when we got home safely and then we left. I always drive first when we leave for a few hours then Darin takes over. It’s always nice for me to do that because I can put on my dark sunglasses and drive so no one can see my tears.

We had a nice drive home and stopped by the car wash to get the loads of mud off the truck and enjoyed seeing our overly excited pups. I came inside and then it hit. I was in so much pain all over and the emotions of leaving my Daddy and family and so much more all hit at once. I sat down on the couch and just cried. Darin came over and sat beside me and held me. He doesn’t need any explanation, he understands. I just keep repeating I am sorry, I am sorry. I don’t really know what I am sorry for, but I feel bad for crying non stop. I have never had emotions like this and it’s tough. I miss my Dad so much already.

I have a lot of friends that complain a lot about there parents. It’s tough because I have already lost one amazing parent and the other one lives hours away so I don’t get to see him the way I would like too. When I hear people complain about there parents I listen, but I am praying they never have to know the hurt of losing a parent, or not being close to them.

I heard loads of stories from my Dad this weekend and even though it’s ones I have heard before I was still so thankful that he was there to tell them to me. Don’t take your parents for granted. This week spend some extra time with them. Take them dinner or help them with things around the house. It may not be what you want to do, but they won’t always be here. When they are gone you will only have memories and a lot of people live with the regret of not spending more time with them while they were here.

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend with this amazing weather in the middle of February! Remember to hold your family close!

Proverbs 22:6   Train up a child in the way he should go, Even when he is old he will not depart from it


One response to “Weekend Goodness

  1. Anonymous says:

    So glad for your wonderful visit with your Dad. Love you. I’m praying!

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