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My journey through cervical cancer

What is your Value in?

on October 2, 2014


Last night I thought of the possible surgery coming up on my kidney and I lost it, my anxiety hit the roof and I sobbed. I called my Daddy to pray for me and he can usually give me a good pep talk and set me straight. I finally fell asleep and got up early to get to the urologist appointment. I seriously felt like I would puke. Last night I had prayed that if God didn’t want me to have this surgery, then to somehow show me what I need to do.

I met the Dr. and after him explaining everything to us, I have chosen not to have the surgery. He said the ONLY thing that is a benefit from this surgery is to have the tube out. On the other hand if I were to have the surgery then the healing process would slow down my immune system and a good chance could happen that the cancer would then spread like wildfire. Let’s see tube out, or cancer growing… Yep I will deal with the tube and continue being Mrs. Tube-a-lot. 😉

He also said the kidney will eventually die off and then we can take the tube out without any surgery. I thanked God for allowing me this little victory. Another victory this week is after 8 months of paperwork, I was finally approved for Medicaid! This is huge as we have stacks upon stacks of medical bills and to have some of those taken care of is a huge weight off our shoulders.

Last night I had a dream that I like to call my God lesson dreams. Our church had needed something for the building and it was rather expensive. We were standing in the social hall, but for some reason there were a lot of heating vents on the floor. A little old lady flagged down one of the deacons and she said, I have something for the building fund. He acted excited until the little lady opened her hand and dropped a shiny penny in his hand.

He looked at it and kind of sighed then I’m not sure whether it accidently fell or he dropped it, but it fell down into the heating vent. He looked at her and said, oh well, it was just a penny. She looked at him and said it wasn’t just a penny. I have been holding onto that penny all my life. It was a 1929 wheat penny and it was worth $20,000. The deacon looked at her and you could see the pain in his eyes.

I woke up and laid there and wondered what that was all about. Immediately in my head I heard, Never take the value away from the small things… Yes God I heard you!! Here I am everyday expecting healing from the big things. When God has been giving me these little victories over and over and I really haven’t been paying attention. I was not giving value to those little things. If I can’t appreciate the little things then how am I going to be thankful for the big things.

From now on, I am going to celebrate every victory that comes along whether big or small!! Not having surgery and getting help with bills are a huge value in what some would see as little things.

Are you missing the value in the little things? How many times do we shoot for the big things and we never appreciate what is right in front of us. Look around you today and try and find happiness in those little things.

Isaiah 40:31 But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint


3 responses to “What is your Value in?

  1. Sharon says:

    God knows exactly what is needed and when it is needed. Big or little to us, but they’are all the same to Him! I am so blessed to hear that our Lord has intervened for you both surgery wise and financially concerning your medical bills. Years ago there was a financial need because of my husband being on Workers Compensation and not receiving any benefits. It was about a year later when we finally received approval for his benefits. The Lord spoke to my heart and said He knew exactly what time we would get the money! Here I worried and fretted and God knew when the money would come! I weep even now remembering this! He is Faithful ! I thank our Lord for you, Sarah! Have a glorious day! I am praying!

  2. Sandra Hess Greenfield says:

    So happy for the good news, never forget God is with you always. Love Sandy

  3. So glad to hear the surgery is not required. I was really concerned about you having to go through that on top of everything else. Being approved for Medicaid is HUGE also! I learned a long time ago through some health situations in the family that celebrating those little things keeps you holding on and gets you through the big tough things. Small victories make big impacts. Many blessings, my friend.

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